Week 2

Well week one was hectic and tiring, every shift I am on my feet, and its rapid getting things down the production line but so worth it. Knowing I have money coming in to my account, and not relying on the government like so many graduates, even if it is minimum wage, there is something about working an honest day. I would highly recommend it! Get a job, any job, and treat it like a stop job. Today was suppose to be my “lucky day,” according to my fortune cookie from the weekend….not sure what to believe. Today was pretty average I did my food hygiene test (fingers cross for a pass, it was so obvious that it was easy to make a mistake), but I did get a phone call from a graduate scheme agency however, when I called back (I have been on the course all day) it went to answer phone. This particular job did not mention grade and its sales! It sounds quite fun. Although, I read a forum saying this particular company call you no matter what then tell you, you are not suitable and waste your time. But today was my “lucky day” is that a good sign? Probably not I am feeling a bit demoralised.

I like many graduates are just bidding their time, seeing if their current job will provide progression opportunities or if the countless applications they keep filling out will result in something. Please, please, please. I am starting to worry that the fire in my belly determined to succeed, determined to do well, ready for a challenge, will actually go out if someone doesn’t give me something applicable to my experiences as a job. Although, I am grateful for a job and enjoying having money I myself have earned, I am ready for something that isn’t very basic. I want to use the degree I have for something, so its not a waste of money. I mean I probably could have worked harder at my degree, but I wouldn’t have had any money to live off (not just socially, but for food and rent) and I guess this experience gives me something that many who got 2.1 and 1sts do not have. I have experience actually working with different people, people from all walks of life. I got a taste of the REAL working world before I graduated. I got to deal with balancing different things ready for proper adulthood. I guess you have to look at the positives in life when you are in the same position as me, or any position that you know will be a struggle. I am trying to be optimistic, its all you can do, you have to pick yourself up. Good Luck.

First real full time job…language barriers? What?

Well I have been in work for 3 days now and its going well I am getting the hang of it. The early mornings are still a killer but I hope it will get easier with time and practice. The work itself is tedious and repetitive, which is fine but I tend to get a bad back from it…nothing major more like an annoying niggle, but ho hum got to man up and deal with it. Its money at the end of the day. What I am struggling with about having a basic job, apart from that the money isn’t going to make me a millionaire, it’s that the people I predominantly work with are Polish, and not many speak English. I don’t mind it and I am not going to be one of those snobby British people about it, saying “why are they here if they can’t speak the language,” “bloody foreigners,” etc etc. I don’t know whether you heard or have read that the reason the UK economy is so great is, because of the migrant work force. Meaning we have to pay extra money to the EU (call me a Euro Sceptic but, the EU is bad on so many levels, good for working abroad and allowing hard workers over here to make up for the people who refuse to work, good for free market economy etc but not much else…I could go on).

Anyway, the people I work with are hard workers they get things done and they are attempting to help me learn despite the language barrier. Of course there are a few who do the bare minimum, and turn their nose up at you just because you are British, but most of them are great and we can have stuttered conversations, which is nice. The only issue is that,  with my colleagues and the supervisor being Polish and I am not sure the supervisor speaks English at all or just chooses not to, but he will bark orders in Polish and my colleagues will scatter and disappear, and I won’t know what I am doing next. I have found that just following them like a little lost lamb works just as well. Of course there are British people who work there and they are all really nice including the managers, but none of them are usually there to talk to me because they are assigned to different tasks. But I think this is a great experience, its like a working holiday in a different country, except its 15min drive away from my own bed.

I have a DILEMMA! I want to learn Polish in order to speak to some of my team and show them I care and am not ignorant. However, I mentioned my idea to a couple of British coworkers who thought it wasn’t a good idea and, I suppose the thought of learning a language so you can get along better at work in your own country sounds bizarre. They also mentioned that you may not want to hear their conversations especially if they happen to talk about you, VERY TRUE! So do I learn some phrases and words which could lead to me hearing something I don’t want to hear? Do I just keep being oblivious to what’s going on? I mean, I have a Polish friend from University, who is awesome and I could ask her for some help (my language app is no use) so learning it is no real problem. But, do I do it? May just learn the basics and see what happens! Anyway early start again tomorrow, so even though it is only 7.20pm I am ready for bed, na night!

Ambitions can you really have any with no direction……

Everyday I feel that my life is going nowhere. I went to university with ambitions but the more I got in to my studies the more that little spark of ambition flickered until finally it blew out. From being a straight A student who loved knowing things, learning and sharing that knowledge, to someone that wanted out and to be happy not stressed. I know there is always going to be stress in life but what I experienced in uni was something else. I managed to persevere and get through it but it just put me off wanting to do anything that involves an academic qualification before getting the job. I realised that the people who did well some were arseholes, and as Interpol students they are the reason politics is so bad! You get ahead by doing well! Which is great, but the amount of people who did well, most of them were just idiots (OK some were lovely, and deserve the very best I swear I am not that bitter) but I think there needs to be a way of valuing someone on personality and certain ways they behave that makes them good for the job. I just wanted to do well, but having no ambition for the actual degree did not help at all. I wanted to be happy but during uni I felt awful, I pushed my friends away through stress, I was just awful as a person.

So what now? What do I do without this spark. Well I have found writing it down helps this is why I have started this blog. I have found that I enjoy writing, I always used to until I was reeling out essay after essay of mindless words only to be marked down for not agreeing with the lecturer. I want to write for fun again, but I need the practice……I would love to get back in to the journalistic style of writing, and have even applied for jobs but due to lack of recent experience, my applications are a waste of time. I guess that’s my new ambition. I have no direction of where this is going but I do have ambition. I have no direction of where I want to go but I want to be happy, and I am lucky to have the support of my family. So for now I keep working earning some money am not going to be an idiot and wait around for the right thing I am going to work and keep applying and trying, you can have ambition but no direction. But it takes time, hopefully I will find the direction when the compass stops spinning and then I can reach out and take everything I want. I guess its just going to take a lot longer than having an actual qualification for it. I just hope this works and Ican get where iI want to be….happy and successful.

Update after my induction……

So today was the day that I finally started my new job! Ok, it was a 2 and a half hour induction and tour of the factory, but I still get paid for it, so I guess it counts right? I start properly on Monday at 6am! I am quite excited even though to start with I was told it would be tedious doing the same thing day in day out until I get used to it and am able to tackle more things. Its something I think the thing is, you can’t be afraid to start from the bottom and work hard! I also spoke about working in the test kitchen coming up with new recipes and trying new things, as well as being trained technically to finish gateaus and cakes. I think there are many career opportunities and progression for such an entry level job. However, I am going to have to work and won’t automatically get these opportunities because I am a graduate… you can’t think like that especially in today’s market.

In terms of careers I have no clue what I want to do in the future, this will do for now and if the right thing comes along then great. That doesn’t mean I am not going to try, you have to but, its easier to get a job when you already have one. I am really enjoying this writing malarkey even if I am really bad at it. I have some ideas I would like to write about but, don’t want to just splurge out random posts (ok I am doing it right now). I will probably get round to it eventually. I know its not realistic but I want to have a fun career, that I am passionate about, so I can really give it my all. I guess we all do.

I am back….I swear….I never left!

Sorry guys for being missing the past week! I have been having some well deserved chill out time before I start my first proper full time job. After spending some amazing time with friends and the boyfriend in my University town, I am back to the countryside, back to the real world. Tomorrow I have my induction ready to start first thing on Monday at 6am!!!! Ouch!!! Its going to hurt! I am really enjoying writing at the moment, and I really do apologise for my bad grammar etc, I hope there is SOME improvement. I have only just realised you can write your own articles on BuzzFeed so I am giving that a go. Feel free to have a look http://www.buzzfeed.com/lcmrwales its very basic but thought it would be a good supplement to this blog. Also, please look at the most wonderful video in the world of Teddy Bear the Porcupine, I promise it will make your day!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cILZ_cB3_so