Week 2

Well week one was hectic and tiring, every shift I am on my feet, and its rapid getting things down the production line but so worth it. Knowing I have money coming in to my account, and not relying on the government like so many graduates, even if it is minimum wage, there is something about working an honest day. I would highly recommend it! Get a job, any job, and treat it like a stop job. Today was suppose to be my “lucky day,” according to my fortune cookie from the weekend….not sure what to believe. Today was pretty average I did my food hygiene test (fingers cross for a pass, it was so obvious that it was easy to make a mistake), but I did get a phone call from a graduate scheme agency however, when I called back (I have been on the course all day) it went to answer phone. This particular job did not mention grade and its sales! It sounds quite fun. Although, I read a forum saying this particular company call you no matter what then tell you, you are not suitable and waste your time. But today was my “lucky day” is that a good sign? Probably not I am feeling a bit demoralised.

I like many graduates are just bidding their time, seeing if their current job will provide progression opportunities or if the countless applications they keep filling out will result in something. Please, please, please. I am starting to worry that the fire in my belly determined to succeed, determined to do well, ready for a challenge, will actually go out if someone doesn’t give me something applicable to my experiences as a job. Although, I am grateful for a job and enjoying having money I myself have earned, I am ready for something that isn’t very basic. I want to use the degree I have for something, so its not a waste of money. I mean I probably could have worked harder at my degree, but I wouldn’t have had any money to live off (not just socially, but for food and rent) and I guess this experience gives me something that many who got 2.1 and 1sts do not have. I have experience actually working with different people, people from all walks of life. I got a taste of the REAL working world before I graduated. I got to deal with balancing different things ready for proper adulthood. I guess you have to look at the positives in life when you are in the same position as me, or any position that you know will be a struggle. I am trying to be optimistic, its all you can do, you have to pick yourself up. Good Luck.


Ambitions can you really have any with no direction……

Everyday I feel that my life is going nowhere. I went to university with ambitions but the more I got in to my studies the more that little spark of ambition flickered until finally it blew out. From being a straight A student who loved knowing things, learning and sharing that knowledge, to someone that wanted out and to be happy not stressed. I know there is always going to be stress in life but what I experienced in uni was something else. I managed to persevere and get through it but it just put me off wanting to do anything that involves an academic qualification before getting the job. I realised that the people who did well some were arseholes, and as Interpol students they are the reason politics is so bad! You get ahead by doing well! Which is great, but the amount of people who did well, most of them were just idiots (OK some were lovely, and deserve the very best I swear I am not that bitter) but I think there needs to be a way of valuing someone on personality and certain ways they behave that makes them good for the job. I just wanted to do well, but having no ambition for the actual degree did not help at all. I wanted to be happy but during uni I felt awful, I pushed my friends away through stress, I was just awful as a person.

So what now? What do I do without this spark. Well I have found writing it down helps this is why I have started this blog. I have found that I enjoy writing, I always used to until I was reeling out essay after essay of mindless words only to be marked down for not agreeing with the lecturer. I want to write for fun again, but I need the practice……I would love to get back in to the journalistic style of writing, and have even applied for jobs but due to lack of recent experience, my applications are a waste of time. I guess that’s my new ambition. I have no direction of where this is going but I do have ambition. I have no direction of where I want to go but I want to be happy, and I am lucky to have the support of my family. So for now I keep working earning some money am not going to be an idiot and wait around for the right thing I am going to work and keep applying and trying, you can have ambition but no direction. But it takes time, hopefully I will find the direction when the compass stops spinning and then I can reach out and take everything I want. I guess its just going to take a lot longer than having an actual qualification for it. I just hope this works and Ican get where iI want to be….happy and successful.

Update after my induction……

So today was the day that I finally started my new job! Ok, it was a 2 and a half hour induction and tour of the factory, but I still get paid for it, so I guess it counts right? I start properly on Monday at 6am! I am quite excited even though to start with I was told it would be tedious doing the same thing day in day out until I get used to it and am able to tackle more things. Its something I think the thing is, you can’t be afraid to start from the bottom and work hard! I also spoke about working in the test kitchen coming up with new recipes and trying new things, as well as being trained technically to finish gateaus and cakes. I think there are many career opportunities and progression for such an entry level job. However, I am going to have to work and won’t automatically get these opportunities because I am a graduate… you can’t think like that especially in today’s market.

In terms of careers I have no clue what I want to do in the future, this will do for now and if the right thing comes along then great. That doesn’t mean I am not going to try, you have to but, its easier to get a job when you already have one. I am really enjoying this writing malarkey even if I am really bad at it. I have some ideas I would like to write about but, don’t want to just splurge out random posts (ok I am doing it right now). I will probably get round to it eventually. I know its not realistic but I want to have a fun career, that I am passionate about, so I can really give it my all. I guess we all do.

On the road (Finally) bring on the freedom!

After being promised in 2013 that for my 20th Birthday I could have my car put through the MOT ready for me to drive it I have finally cashed in my present! I had been saving for tax and insurance and waiting to get a job so I could afford to run it! The time came for me to have a job…and the car was still sat there relying on my parents and loving boyfriend to drive me round. But now with this new job my car having been SORN and sat in the drive for over a year, passed its MOT!!! Hooray! Only £250 to get it on the road, much cheaper than buying a new car, and I know when its running it is reliable and efficient (touch wood). As of midnight tonight I am insured on my little ford fiesta, (named Baby after the song “Go baby, Go baby, Go!” and the fact it was the same colour and similar shape to my Dad’s old Range Rover) and tomorrow I will go to the Post Office and get the tax sorted! I am so excited! On Wednesday, I get to drive to my University town to spend a chill out week with the boyfriend before I start my job, and I get to drive one of my best friends there too! OMG! I am so excited! Can you tell? Life is good right now (touch wood) especially after the disaster of University, things do look up. Onwards and upwards!

New Job….AGAIN! How did this happen!

Well, this is why I have been catching up! Hence the need for 3 posts in one day! Like I have said previously, I could not find anything that helped me in anyway on to know what to do after University. And it came to my realisation that I have been very fortunate!

My parents have let me live rent free (I did offer) but I do help them out. Now I will be able to help them out even more. I have been offered a permanent position at a luxury foods factory. I start in a few weeks. It is full time and i don’t have to work weekends! IDEAL! Ok. Its just a production line and ok it does feel like a downgrade from a supermarket in some ways. But it is full time hours and 5 days a week. It is minimum wage so less money than a supermarket would pay its employees but because it is full time it adds up. I only applied on the Friday had my interview on the Thursday and by the following Tuesday I had the job! Talk about rapid! Only downside was that I have had to hand in my resignation and management didn’t seem too impressed and I will miss my colleagues and team although my new job is round the corner (kind of)….. Although, I was on a temporary contract, and they failed to even notice that it had expired the same day I found out I had a new job. I only applied on the off chance I would get it, I didn’t think I would, but I did. Trick is to just apply otherwise, you will never know. You call the shots in your life, don’t try to keep others happy if it jeopardises your happiness. Lets hope this isn’t the wrong move for more money….watch this space!

(Also, excuse the grammar and spellings, as you can guess I have been out of writing practice for months! Except for CV’s and cover letter’s)

First real job!

After finding out my degree is pretty much useless and struggling to find a job after 3 months! I finally had my first real job at a well known supermarket chain! It was a job, I needed money, like I am sure millions of other students do after the expense of trying to be an independent adult, and failing at it miserably! Unless you are one of the weird people who never struggled…..well screw you :P! Settle for that job even if it is just a stop job! It could turn in to something much more, and you could enjoy it and end up running the company one day! Be optimistic! It really wasn’t what I had in mind for my future so, to be back in my high school town, working with people I had not seen since high school….AWKWARD! But it was something after all and it is better than having no job at all! It is well known that you are more likely to get hired for a position if you already have a job than if you are “looking”. To a company they see you as lazy even if you are actively seeking work and handing out CV’s everyday. They don’t know that, nor do they care. I learnt quickly that it is no use holding out for that amazing job because you may not get it. If you get some money in your account you won’t end up in a big downer from finishing University, where your friends want to do things but you can no longer afford to. Hang in there. A job is a job and money is money. You can’t have one with out the other, even to play the lottery you need money and to get that money you need a job (unless its from birthday’s etc but who gets that much anyway as soon as they hit 20! Its all bath treats!).

The job it self was alright, the staff in my department were lovely and the best team you could ask for, apart from a couple of controversial characters that no one really liked but they endured because these people were good at their job (or they made it look like they were). But for a stop job it was better than I could ever have asked for. I think you may have noticed how I have used were and was, well I have a lot of catching up to do! Just hope these posts can give you something to feel optimistic about its not the end of the world.

What do I do now?

As a graduate I have found it difficult to find a real calling in life. When it first began to dawn on me that University was really not for me I was already nearing the end of my second year. I was struggling but scrapping passes, which was good right? I was at a good University, even a 2:2 would suffice? Wrong! In the end I narrowly missed out on my aim of getting a 2:2 and ended up with a 3rd class honours. What was even worse is that the University I had decided to study at back in 2011 was slowly declining in terms of credibility as a renowned institution. So now i have degree. What the hell was I suppose to do with that? My parents had bragged about how clever I was and how I was going to be successful one day, but it wasn’t for me. I just didn’t want to do it. I was stuck. I began researching different paths to follow do I do a masters at a really low level University? Do I do a course in something? No, not yet, I am fed up of learning and I couldn’t afford it, why waste money you don’t have on something you may or may not enjoy. My only choice I decided was to get a job, some money and go from there. If I do decide to try something academic in the future after the failure of Uni, then I have that option. I carried on researching. I hate not having an aim in life! There was nothing on the internet that seemed to appeal to me. Nothing was there to help me. You see all these forums and ideas but all seemed to say “Graduate Schemes”, “Minimum 2:2 required”, “Must have relevant qualifications”. Well that’s me buggered. Ok “What to do if you don’t get what you wanted in your degree?” There were so many hits for this but mainly from people who missed out on 2:1’s, there were very few like my self who missed out on 2:2’s and even fewer who did not graduate at all. Why was I such a failure in life? The forums I did find were either replies saying “Don’t worry I did the same….” Ok care to elaborate, what did you do next? Show me the way? Or stuck up replies ” Well maybe if you had worked harder in your degree, like I did then you wouldn’t be in this position, its your own fault!” Great! Really what I wanted to hear right now! After University I moved back in with my parents in the countryside like many graduates do and I did find a job. It took me about 3 months to find one that firstly, hired me and gave me the job and second that offered enough hours to warrant travelling to, from the rural setting I now inhabit. So don’t give up! Just move in with relatives or friends don’t try to compete with others who have graduated and now have this amazing job in the city. Just go your own way and things will start falling in to place. You are not alone.